Lately I’ve been thinking about self-introspection, primarily in that I’m in need of some.
I think it has a lot to do with the time of year. Although last year was my first out of school, I was so wrapped up in learning my new position and had the excitement of no longer having homework that it didn’t phase me. Now I’ve got my routine down, and truth be told, I’m feeling a little antsy.
It’s even moreso the case since close friends and family are starting up classes, jobs and other activities this week. I’m excited for them, but it’s making me want a new adventure or challenge, too. (It’s especially true when I think about the little, who flies to Europe tonight to start her study abroad program for the semester. Thankfully she’s starting a blog so I can live vicariously through her. I also love that her blog name is based on one of my favorite Beatles songs. She’s definitely my sister.)
With my seeming lack of excitement, I decided to do what I do best — soul-searching. (And I can just about picture half the people reading this rolling their eyes…)
It somewhat started last night while I finished reading The Upside of Fear. I don’t know that it would work for me personally, but the author explained one of the best things he does for introspection is think about what people would say about him if he died today. Could his son say he was a good father? Would his parents say he grew to be a kind and decent man? What would the last interactions with his closest friends and loved ones have been?
Since that was a little too intense for my liking, I went to my starting point for everything else: google. Immediately I came across this page. It also seems somewhat intense and I certainly wouldn’t ask all 20 questions on a weekly basis, but many are valid questions. I especially like the question about whether there’s anyone you’ve been meaning to talk to and if there’s someone you can help. It at least changes my focus from me to being there for others.
Then this morning I got a little more assistance. I subscribe to daily emails about the Fire Starter Sessions (I’ve mentioned before how much I love the author) and today’s was a list of three questions you should ask for an easier way of living. (It’s like the universe wants me to be introspective!) It’s simple, straight-forward and gets to the heart of my life as it is now.
- Out of what needs to be done in your life — work, household, creativity — what do you do best?
- What space do you have access to — in your home, work, city — that makes you feel the most peaceful and/or inspired?
- What are you doing that you resent, and how can you phase out of that?
I don’t know how many of the questions I’ve got the need or energy to dive into, but at least it generates some stimulating thoughts and gets me revved up about something. It’s a little disturbing how much I thrive on goals, challenges and deadlines… Not having enough apparently makes me a little restless. At least I’m good at playing 21 questions.